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It's been so long since i last posted many things have changed. For one i gave up my job, when i told my doctor he agreed, said it was for the best, and i thought and had thought for a while the same, but now i kinda regret it, maybe a tiny bit. I don't have any money. I don't really mind that much, its just i hate depending on my mum for cigarettes and stuff when i've done it on my own for so much. I've actually not been doing anything, just sleeping untill late, play with the hamster for a bit then watch tv, its crap. Doesn't help anything. Big news in the family, but there is no way in hell i would write it on this, no way. But it is actually so depressing. I've never heard anything like it in my life. I suppose i've been kinda hiding from the fact that Uncle Robert had gone, whenever it comes to mind i change the subject instantly. People ask me why i left my job and college, and well i've said to a few the doctor said it was for the best, and i could actually say it without you know crying. But tonight i got asked and i never mentioned it, i dont know why, i never thought in that time the reply was to be said, i just instantly said, well i dont want to work or go to college theres time for that. There's not really time for that, well obviously their is, but if i get lazy and put everything off ill become a down and out, and i dont want to.
The thing that cheers me up the most right now, is probably the new irn bru advert. That's pretty depressing. anyway im away just now, i'll write again soon. the blog tonight is a lot of crap, i've not opened up right.
xxx